What a year this is turning out to be. Man o man, things after thing, event after event, and struggle after struggle.
There are a lot of things going on in my life right now. From church to school to friends to family to ministry, I am finding myself in a constant blur where the only solid constant is the Lord. I know it may sound corny but its corniness does not take away from its truth.
Something that’s going on right now is a heavy sense of lukewarmness. I look around me, and in myself, and I sense that I am living a life very under whelmed of God and who he is. A lot of times I am finding myself in situations where I am doing something and then the Holiness of the Almighty comes in the picture, the type of scenario where the mightiest angels are crying out of reverence and worship for the Almighty. The whole Isaiah six type thing. As I am seeing this picture in my mind I am faced with the inadequacy of my living. Now I know the blood of Christ covers this inadequacy and my relationship with the Lord stands reconciled, but I also know that is never an excuse to not fight against all what is in me and strive for Holiness. I see the call to be Holy as God is Holy; my strivings made in faith are pleasing to our Father. This is a holistic type of thing, this Holiness issue. It doesn’t mean that I need to read my bible more or go to church more often (God knows I am there enough) or do more things for the poor. No, not this Holiness. This Holiness is holistic, my entire way of life. The words of my mouth, the way I do my homework, the thoughts of my mind, the ways I treat those around me, my attitude, my focus, my heart, the way I use the precious time given to me by God. All these things need to be set apart, and not to be used and abused as if I don’t even know God.
As I am taking this road to Holiness I am finding another struggle to deal with in the midst, my judgment of others. As I am striving for Holiness I have been increasingly finding myself wanting to pump other people full of their iniquity. I see people’s sin and laziness and I want to ram them with the, “THUS SAYS THE LORD!” But as soon as these thoughts come into my mind I am reminded that whatever correction I am to give it is to be done with gentleness and humbleness, lest I think myself greater than I am.
That’s the thing for now. Go with God in all you do, because if you don’t you’ll be the one leading the way, and you’ll definitely screw it up.
